psalms 32

it has been 3 months since i left Australia to come to Africa. it has had more than enough challenges and at times felt like i wasn't going to get through this school feeling like my head was just above water, trying and hoping i won't drown. Probably the most challenging 3 months I've had going to a place of hopelessness and despair when seeing injustice and death so rampant and up close. i don't ever want to go to that place again without God. i think it was so hard because i didn't know how to include him in it but i think my whole mindset of including God in it was off. He is the center and answer of everything, i dont need to include him because he is already there. He sees people's pain and despair and wants to come. He doesn't want me to fight alone. He is my victorious warrior and He is the one that fights for me, i don't have to be discouraged anymore. He is building up my faith again. Were building a relationship again, me and God. this week i looked at Psalm 32 and it brought me hope as i hope it brings to you as well...

Psalm 32
blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. blessed is the man whose sin the Lord does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit. when i kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. for day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. then i acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. i said 'i will confess my transgressions to the Lord'- and you forgave the guilt of my sin. therefore let everyone who is godly pray to you while you may be found; surely when the mighty waters rise, they will not reach him. you are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance. i will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; i will counsel you and watch over you. do not be like the horse or the mule, which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle or they will not come to you. many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in him. rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous; sing, all you who are upright in heart!